Sometimes it feels like I can't draw at all. I become convinced that I am holding my pen incorrectly and that the pen I am holding incorrectly isn't even the pen I should be using. It's like playing golf with a shovel. It seems obvious that I am just a massive collection of bad artistic habits that will have to be broken in order for me to get anywhere. Sitting at my desk with the pen in my hand feels as awkward as putting on a suit and tie backwards.
That's what it feels like sometimes.